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Monday, November 11, 2013

Shizuka Muto's retirement from 小悪魔AGEHA。。。


 (April 2010 Ageha scan)

Looking at my subscription feed this past week, I ran upon my friend Charlotte's blog post about agemo Shizuka Muto leaving 小悪魔Ageha, and modeling in general to focus more on her clothing brand RADY. She also made a post about her announcement on her blog.






One of my favorite videos of her!



Some 2007 scans~ 

I was pretty shocked! It pricked my heart a bit because Shizuka was one of my favorite gal models since I started getting into the fashion... she was one of the most influential pioneer agemo; she was always one of the most flyest chicks, with a ton of style and that gyaru 'swag'. Her hair was always that fun and airy type of mori that I usually like to go after the most, and she would always switch between this cute pop-ish kind of sexy style to just full out dark and sexy agejo.


A scan from her personal style book "小悪魔Shizuka".



From Dec '08 AGEHA







I'm talking about her as though she died! It's just that I miss her so much. I've been too broke to buy magazines since June but now I feel compelled to purchase all of them so I can get the most of her before she officially stops modeling in December.


 

A 2008 scan

I'm glad though that she has a focus and to her, she's going to the 'next level'-- she talks so enthusiastically about her time with Ageha in her goodbye interview (in Charlotte's link), and how GAL she felt, I have a feeling she'll be one of the ex-models who will continue to be very GAL for a while longer, kind of like Himeka Shirosaki (who remembers her?). I never watched her RADY brand (back when it first came out, it was mostly roomwear so I never bothered), but now I have to follow it!




 






I'll miss seeing her style sooo much!

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Saturday, October 26, 2013

What's been going on as of late... Freelance work, odd jobs, GAL VIP



I'm a bit ashamed of myself for having almost completely stopped with my blogging! I'm finding my life a bit hectic since coming back from Guyana.. I keep making posts about "shaking off bad feelings" and whatnot, but in all honesty, I don't know when exactly that is going to happen.


But! I wanted to say a few things about what's been going on with me:

1) If you've read my last post on my best friend Muffy, I've been spending a lot of time catching up with her. Now that she finally finished her second undergrad degree, and her daughter is finally in Pre-K, and working less hours, we've been hanging out much more often. I can't even truly call it "catching up" because we talk all the time regardless, but you know what I mean..

Also, I've been trying to not jack myself up spiritually so I can support her spiritually as she tarries for the Holy Spirit. Of course, I haven't been doing much of a good job as far as backsliding, so most of our times together are casual outings, if not being with her in church on Sundays, encouraging her, learning things with her, etc.Sometimes I really wish I could express myself when it comes to my faith, my struggles with my old habits and things of that nature, but often times I keep thinking it's inappropriate for my blog. It's really not, but... I'll probably share all of that in a future post some time soon.

2) Pretty much during the whole month of October, I've been assisting Lady M (my pastor's wife) with a lot of graphic/stationary based things, one being a very huge project for the International Women's Council for the faith organization our church is under.. this project held me back from a lot of things, being currently behind on other assignments that was supposed to be due a week ago. Yikes! Of course at the same time, I've also been trying to slip in random work for pastor for our church's website and things.

I'm pretty much appointed the church's "graphic designer" which kind of makes me feel good, but at the same time I can't help but feel under-qualified for all the praise and compliments they give me.. Honestly, everything I know is self-taught and I don't know a damn thing about "vectors" or "masks" in Photoshop, haha. I have been learning small things at a time though, like learning to make website buttons and whatnot, so only time will tell how good I'll eventually get, and how fast..


3) Along with those work responsibilities above, I've also been acting as an escort for one of Lady M's young nieces. She's currently a performers of the off-Broadway gospel musical "We Are!", so I've been taking her to and from Harlem. Paired with all the graphic work I have to do, the past couple of weeks have been pretty damn exhausting. I honestly don't know how this kid is doing it, either.


4) It was announced earlier in the month that I was selected to be one of the newer models for GAL VIP! And I'm already failing so, so hard. I honestly never realized how hard it was to "model", especially on your own, like wow. I've been sitting here with my little derpy point-and-shoot and 6 inch tall tripod trying to take outfit shots and stuff and just.. everything is not trying to work with me. I can't even.




At the conception of this magazine I was very skeptical, and negative about it's existence due to past drama-related stuff. But since the shift with the main editors and whatnot, and seeing how the models and everyone pretty much hung in there and keep doing their best, I started feeling better about them. Hopefully it'll continue to get even better. It definitely became one of the more longer-living online magazines I've seen that is catered towards a western J-fashion culture. It's also been heavily inspiring me style-wise! Hopefully I can give satisfactory content that'll help others.


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Other than that, I've also been observing a lot of relations that I have with different people, and different groups. Current friends, ex-friends, "enemies" as well. There's really not much to say about anyone but I have a tendency to just note people's patterns as far as interactions with other people, body language, skills, etc. It's a strange thing, especially for those who have had a 'shift' in terms of communication and stuff. People-watching has been a bit of entertainment for me, just to observe different things and either reaffirm my overall opinion of them, or acknowledge change and growth (or the opposite, for some)

I've also noted changes in my own life as well; I've always saw myself struggling in the middle of a 'paradigm shift', you can say. Trying to break old habits, break away from people, and focusing on myself and on my responsibilities as a member of my church and also in regards to my future. I've sort of been looking back in time and seeing how my personality has changed, even the slightest little thing.. seeing how I was then vs. now as far as direction and passions: also my common issue as far as feeling or being idle, not trying to tackle my fears, and not being very consistent as far as my own path. Now I'm seeing how I act around a particular group of people, who I've been investing (and sometimes wasting time with), and who I really need to start listening to and complying with what's been sort of said to me repeatedly over the past couple of weeks.

Recent events suddenly had me thinking of the things I could've prepared for and gotten out of the way, and things I could've put research into and bring into fruition. I have so many plans but I'll admit I've always had a fear of moving forward because of the inevitable trial-and-error process, a very negative perfectionist trait of mine that's been pretty crippling for most of my life. So for a while I've been trying to examine myself and bring down that stronghold.

A part of me really wants to 'wing' everything I've had in mind, but I'm afraid of not being able to turn back if I do. "If your dreams do not scare you, they are not big enough." That is a quote that I've been hearing a LOT lately, or at least some variation of it. I also ended up finding this article through Google, that really points out a lot of the different kinds of fear I have. I kind of wonder if having most of that list makes my problems extraordinarily bad?

So now it's not so much that "I'm ready" to push myself, I have no choice but to. When I say it that way, it really reminds me of childbirth, an analogy that I've witnessed being used in multiple inspirational outlets like church, Youtube, etc. So I need to just get everything in motion, and pray for the best..


Speaking of 'putting things in motion', I'm looking forward to hopefully making a few videos, if not just blog posts on recent events like New York Comic Con, and even Halloween next week! Hopefully some of you will look forward to it.

Tuesday, October 1, 2013

A Celebration of Long-Lasting Friendship


Sorry I haven't been updating lately! I've only just started getting out of my depressed hermit status this weekend. I'm kind of not over my negative feelings yet, but just enough to be a bit motivated to start working again. I ended up losing my HDD (hopefully somewhere in my house) and that's pretty much why I haven't went into detail about my 2nd mission trip to Guyana or anything. I also got some new things (like a new phone, which I'm typing from now!) But I'm in no real rush to make a post on it right now.

I just wanted to talk about a recent outing with my best friend, where we celebrated 9 years of friendship!  It may seem a bit silly, but when you go through so much like deceiving friends, friends' deaths, and other life situations, it feels really good to recognize the length of a close friendship.

I remember we became friends on the very first day of high school~ we were both in the same Math class during period 2, and that was how we met.

Since freshman year we were inseparable; friends came and gone, drama with birdlike chicks, through my own HS love-drama b.s., and her struggles with her family and her hood in Spanish Harlem. I started dressing lolita and she was the only one who didn't reject me; when she gave birth to her daughter I was there with her. And then even more recently, me finding myself in God, and her following and seeking the same relationship with God, having been baptized a month ago during a conference revival.

I can say I never really lived life up until the point where we started hanging out. So much happened around us but we made it out of everything together. We never fought and broke our friendship. We cussed at each other, told truth to each other, cried with each other, and acted plain retarded together. We were always mistaken for sisters, cousins, and lol lesbians because we were together that much. 

God has kept us through 9 years and there's been so much growth between us.. we had to recognize it.

So, we went to Gyukaku for some serious grubbing.. like 125 dollars worth of grub. LOL



A little collage of not even everything we got... that we took as we talked about other issues going on. Miso soup, sweet potato tempura sticks, shrimp dumplings, miso-bbq chicken wings.. sukiyaki bimbimbap, spinach garlic, grilled onion, and what probably ended up being a pound+ of different meats LOL and then a buttload of pina colada-mojitos and caramelized banana splits. .. yeah, it was pretty intense.

Obligatory bathroom selfies



Outfit shot~ F21, Strawberry, Rainbow's.

I would never trade my friendship with her for anything. I've had too many fakes, d*ckriders, "underlings", flaky insecure people, flame starters, you name it. I'm over most people that try to interact with me. One of the only relationships I'll truly care for is my friendship with Muffy.



My general advice on friendship? 

Don't base your friendships on location or hobby or fashion. Get deeper than just that, when you know its safe to. Be able to discern people's personalities and habits and determine whether or not they're good for you, or toxic.

Always value someone who tell or receive things like it is, even if it hurts. Who aren't afraid to level you down for long-term benefits, someone who you know aren't up in people's business over trying to sort themselves out and live their life. 

Be receptive to their thoughts and concerns, and criticisms. Don't be selfish about your own interests.

Together, be able to pick each other off the ground and support each other. 
And be prepared to lift each other up to higher ground. Be prepared to sacrifice. 

Most of all, have fun every minute of it.


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Wednesday, September 18, 2013

Janelle Monae x Target "Electric Pirate Radio" Event 9/9/13




The last two or three weeks might have been nothing but depression for me, but I was fortunate enough to get tickets into a private Janelle Monae event in promotion of her new album "The Electric Lady". If you've been following me for a while, you'd know how I feel about Janelle's music and her artistic spirit. When I got this opportunity my mood instantly lifted up.

First off-- let me talk about her album. She let VH1 embed a stream of her whole album a week before it's release on their website, and when I tell you everyone and their mother was on it? My whole facebook friendslist was enchanted by every song. I liked the ArchAndroid and Metropolis as well, but there was something about this album that just made it the best so far. Every song flowed into the next... and it makes me nostaglic of all the old school tunes from back in the day. The entire album was just fluid and your ears would just melt into the next song. It's very hard to even choose favorites because it all seems like one (hour and change-long) track. Seriously. But the ones I keep replaying over and over again would be "It's Code" (very Jackson 5), "Ghetto Woman" (a song for her mother), Dorothy Dandridge Eyes, Can't Live Without Your Love, and Primetime.

...You already see I practically listed more than half the album. Yyyyeahhhhh. Yeah.



Event photos and story under the cut!

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Wednesday, August 14, 2013

Now what...?

I'm finding myself in the middle of a "post-travel depression" at the moment.
Guyana was good as last time, as expected, though much more intense both in a physical and spiritual sense. I kept catching headaches from heat and exhaustion from working so much and not keeping myself dehydrated.. and then out of nowhere I caught a really bad flu near the end of the trip. I flew in Monday afternoon and since then I've been sitting around doing nothing, staring at my walls, playing video games here and there, trying to slowly unpack my suitcase and stuff.. I can't do much since I just got back and of course I won't be getting a check this week because of it.

Now I'm in a position where I don't really know what I want to do next. Or rather, where to even begin. As soon as I got on that plane I couldn't even reminisce on the past two weeks, because my brain immediately went "I need to find another job." "I need to finish drafting this business plan." "I need to start doing this thing and that thing." Trying to make mental lists in my head about every exact step I need or want to take in the next few months. I'd usually make lists of my goals for the future, but this year I felt like I was so lost for some reason.

I sort of lost direction in the beginning of the year because I was so drained from working at Harry Potter, plus struggling for like 3 months with the bronchitis and whatnot, and I've still yet to visit my doctor about further steps with my bad knee. I have a blank canvas that's been sitting outside my room for almost 2-3 months now because of that artist's block when you first start some work...

My grandmother's health is in a questionable state and I'm a bit paranoid that she might not have long to live. (Mainly because she's getting into her whole "WHEN I DIE/AM GONE AND BLAH" modes like Omi.. I really don't want to hear that crap, 'kay thanks). I really want to just indulge on fashion like I usually do but I know I have to abstain and actually start making decisions and ACTIONS as far as work and career and finding my passion.

Why is my biological clock going off .____. I keep feeling like I'm 24 nearing 25, rather than 23 years old. I don't want a youth-life crisis. I don't want to start going crazy trying to have a big career and a husband and a kid in a nice house/apartment by the time I hit 30 years old. lol life can you just not
Thursday, August 1, 2013

Updates before I leave!

Guyana is finally around the corner. In 36 hours I will be on that flight on my way to Cheddi-Jagan Airport~

I can't help but feel really under-prepared for what is waiting for us down there. This time around the preparation was very short but very studious... and I haven't managed to put everything in my memory bank yet. I really hope I don't derp out because we'll be a lot more than just services and class workshops. I might even end up doing altar call work because of the lack of trained altar call missionaries this time around.

This time around the A/V (audio/video, not Adult Video ya nastyiknowyouwerethinkingit) ministry is not bringing down the church's video camera like last time... so this time we're going to just work with my two Canon point-and-shoot cameras. I'm really hoping we'll have enough memory to record all the services, since we're going to be working with only about 36-50GB worth all combined.. for 9-10 days worth of footage. That, or I'm hoping I can somehow, HOPEFULLY be able to come in contact with a computer and transfer files to my external hard drive.


That being said, I cannot wait for the fooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooood
Guyanese people put a whole bunch of sodium into their food but it's so good. Their meat is organic, their mango fruit taste like pure sugar... even the sodas are made from sugar and not corn syrup, and it's a totally different taste. All the food is made fresh from scratch... I cannot wait for the porridge in the morning, the saltfish for lunch, and then the curry chicken and roti for dinner time...and the coconuts.. Lord please... I just... sjkdahskhvw

I realize I didn't take nearly enough photos for the second half of the time, so I'm gonna try to make effort this time. I might reserve one of my smaller memory cards for all the photos.


The only current issue for me at the moment is packing my suitcase. Oh boy...

I also got to run to the store tomorrow to get mosquito repellent, some essential oils that help repel bugs as well, and if I cannot find my flashlight, I'll need to get a new one as well e e really sucks.. I probably have other things to get, which I'm sure I'll regret if I don't remember what they are. It's that last minute crunch that's killing me right now...


My giveaway is still going on for another two weeks, it ending on the week after I return, so you still have time to get extra entries in. 

I have a video coming up too, which I hope to finish for my lover Shaka to post before I head off, so my activity tomorrow will probably be 0.



A very small preview.

 But definitely look forward to it. I might also buy a pair of circle lenses right before I leave so I'll have something new when I get back c: Later on I plan to probably make a compilation vid of different moments from this summer. Not too many videos, and it'll probably be chopped up, but I hope to do it anyways. Also a summer coord video or blog post of my favorite outfits I mixed and matched over this season that pretty much kept me cute and comfortable the whole time.

Other than that, August will be pretty slow since I have a birthday/going-away/baby shower party to go to as soon as I get back, job searching, and then a wedding at the end of the month to attend. Regardless I hope to bring my entries up to date..

There have been more than enough times where I had to tell someone off. Anyone who have known me for a long time, especially in the lolita community, have known this about me, haha. Those same people have also seen a gradual change in me over the years.

In 2007-2008 I was very... what's the word... is there even a word to describe the level I was on as far as actions are concerned? Probably not. I was very active at that time in drama communities like old LJ lolita_wank and later the newer version getoffegl. The foolishness that would make its way onto these forums were nothing less than hilarious majority of the time. Because I was very brash most of the time I remember being head-to-head with some of the more infamous (and sadly) real life trolls that would appear. Even going into 2009-2010, while I stopped going off as much, I was still very much known for telling people off when they were in the wrong, getting into very heated debates regarding topics like "lifestyle", what have you.

On old gyaru forums, e.x. Ricoche (hahaha if you used to be on there, shout out xD), I used to repeatedly go off on "gyaru" people for stupid opinions, or things that were really idiotic that they tried to push on other people, or when certain members would have their little fanclubs gang up on individuals because they didn't agree with them. Once I got into it with a lot of them, they usually did a huge amount of flouncing because they were mainly not true (to themselves and other people) and could not handle the reaction they would get for the same amount of cattiness they would initially give.

But like any 'generational' group of people, those who used to do so much back then eventually mellowed out, became less trigger-happy, became less interested in the latest retard that would pop up, and reserved themselves for more serious topics and what have you. I think it was the end of 2011 when I completely stopped looking at drama forums, ____secrets, even as far as keeping myself up to date with what goes on in the community. The Gyaru community back then, I felt was really crippled and there was no use in connecting with stupid people. (Now that those of us who have been in it for a while have mellowed out, I actually talk to an awful lot of 'oldheads' who I used to communicate with, good or bad. That and now that there's more diversity as far as different countries, or the showcasing of different people's personal lifestyles through blogs and whatnot, I have a little bit of a greater appreciation for it.)

That point in time was really crucial for me style-wise, because I was concentrating a lot on myself, as far as working, or school, and I think back then I might've -just- started going to church or something, but there was a lot of improvement or maturing from then to now. When I first got into gyaru, I didn't use makeup at all-- so during this kind of social 'break' period I found a makeup style I was satisfied with, gotten more familiar with hair and styling, and I started shifting my wardrobe to be more evened out (between lolita, gyaru-workable stuff, and now more casual things for modest occasions). I also pushed myself to meet people that inspired me career-wise, lifestyle-wise, musically...

Because of my break, nowadays I cannot be bothered by people's bullcock. It actually takes a lot for me to really go off on someone, like a long history of stupidity that gets continually worse. Besides that, I just simply give input if it is asked for, I post my own photos here and there and that's it.. I am very corrective, when I give people advice or constructive criticism, I do not sugarcoat anything I say, but I just tell them exactly how it is. Because honestly, no one truly improves when others beat around the bush and fawn over people and not giving them the potential growth they should go for.

I have no trouble commenting and telling a person truth, especially if they go out their way to digitally edit themselves (badly, because a lot of girls really can't use these editing programs correctly) and then trying to play it off like they didn't do anything. Usually in those cases I'll question it, the person tries to defend it, I'll go 'oh ok well if that's what you say, but such and such are tell-tale signs saying otherwise. But alright.' and though at that point I just dismiss it, the original poster usually deletes the post knowing that others would realize what I had pointed out. A lot of the times though I do not even bother to comment because it's very easy for me to see people's motives when they post, especially those who only post for compliments, or for a following, or something like that. Seeing a lot of the community is now like that, I just don't try to wrap my mind around it because I know exactly where it would lead. Especially within ethnic demographic groups, sadly enough.  It's a bit annoying.


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That being said, when I'm at this state of 70% not giving a damn, it's hilarious to me when salty, sickly looking girls with some sort of small following try to come at me out of the blue, and out of context of what might be going on at the time because of some old feelings they still have for me. Princess Rune would call them, "dusty cluckclucks". It's sad when people who attach names and styles to themselves (but don't reflect it at all, or make it look bad with their mediocrity) not only think they have Godship-level authority concerning a certain demographic, but think they can come at me as though their long-lived reasoning for hating was ever still relevant.

It's entertaining to me, having watched it happen with my old friend with her past situations, and Rune, being known for her old 'weeaboostories' blog, and to see some someone still have some sort of feelings towards my presence in general is hilarious, despite me not posting much but my pictures, constructive crit here and there, and not being anywhere near how I used to be. Sometimes I would discuss it with others and they would see and feel the same thing. Often we would jokingly regard them as jarred lovers who would never get over the 'bad breakup'.

Despite me not liking or getting along with people, I've learned to disregard and ignore them (whether it's a post, or their existence in general). For people to have the inability to be able to willingly -enter- a dispute and not keep their head cool-- it kind of just makes me shake my head at them. When they let the salt permeate in their blood stream to the point where they don't have the ability to be subtle when need be, or be able to argue a point without giving in to name-calling, accusations or threatening unwarranted authoritative action, and then they want to be concerned about their image being stained...

Reflecting and laughing at recent events and people's 'closing notes', I'm thankful for a developed and sound mind, being able to discern a situation, having the ability to stick to what I say, and also not create a delusion of things. People's foolishness only causes a self-fulfilling prophecy. After all, a double-minded person is unstable in all his ways...


People sure go crazy over this 'internet idolism' stuff. Fans may unanimously love and whiteknight to their hearts' desire, but fellow peers who are aware will start to see you for your idiocy.
Sunday, July 28, 2013

BFF's graduation~ + Omi's birthday

At the end of May my best friend Muffy graduated from Queens College, and she wanted me to be there for her ceremony.




Told her to pose and then she gave me this. Ok fine e___e

We met on the very first day of High School and since then we've been pretty much inseparable. She's been through a lot in her lifetime, including having a child during the first year or so of college. Despite the odds, she was able to work fulltime, and do school full-time and FINISH with her SECOND bachelor's degree. Even though I told her to chill and take a break from school for a while, she's now looking at graduate schools e_e before she drives herself crazy.

But she's very inspirational.. I need her motivation and her strength.



Her daughter Jasmine ♥ Who's exactly like her in looks (except being milky skinned hah) and in personality. Her little twin.


Since her ceremony was really early in the morning I had ended up staying the night before~ when it was time to get up everyone else came over-- her father, her baby's father, her two other close friends, and all of us including her daughter, her sister and her mom went out to the ceremony.



My makeup. "Au naturale" since the weather was ridiculously hot that day and I had no time e-e




The crowd of family and friends, the graduates in the distance. By this time pretty much everyone left except myself, baby's father and then her friend Kita because it was pretty much heat-stroke weather.



The graduate

After that we all headed back towards the city~ me and Muffy split from the other two who had to work, to go to Gyukaku for celebratory lunch.



Sup, hat hair


She had herself one of the lunch specials, meanwhile I got my usual yakishabu + kalbi chuck, and the both of us got some nice cocktail drinks as well - u-


I also had this "Salmon vegetable bulgogi". Or the name was close to that. It was goooood



The waiter was also nice enough to give her some free ice cream with chocolate~



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The day or so after was also my oma's 81st birthday. We don't really do anything for her birthday since my grandparents are generally to themselves and stuff, plus her legs are really bad so she can't really travel outside the home.

Not too long ago I found a photo from when she was young...



My great-grandmother (me and my siblings actually called her "Oma"), my Omi, and then the little angel is my Tante Ursula... (who's the complete opposite in personality but I woooon't get into that, hah)
This was when she was still in Germany around World War II.. I think it was a while after it. Don't ask me where she's from... it was a village near Stuttgart... everytime she says the name my mind explodes and don't know how to even begin to spell it xD Seriously my brain farts and it translates it to something between 'weiner' and 'hamburger'. If only Omi bothered to teach me German as a kid... xD



This is her now... lol excuse her snaggletooth xD

I really appreciate my grandmother, even though at times especially now she's at that age where she can't hear well or she's a bit derpy.. it's kind of annoying at times xD But she was one of the main people in my life who raised me. I always enjoy her stories about her past and coming to America, dealing with having an interracial relationship in both worlds. And of course all her salats, pfaankuchen, and other food = u= yis

I need to cherish time with her more, and learn everything she knows while I still have time with her.. ♥
Saturday, July 27, 2013

#unfriendlypoclolitas Picnic


As you might have guessed by now, June has been a very busy month for me...

One weekend I planned a picnic with a couple of my lolita friends as a little 'getaway' day. It was very much needed after recent events that were back to back to back every weekend.

We joked and dubbed that day as #unfriendlyPOClolitas because out of the couple of friends that showed, it was 4 black lolitas and one Asian.yeah... we're stupid like that.
Of course I was dumb and forgot my camera, so most of these photos were stolen from the other girls.





Me fixing myself...

Not sure if there ever was a picture shot buttt we had some assorted sandwiches~ scones~ onigiri~ fruit salad~ Marie cookies~ soda and also a lovely spiked fruit punch that Nicole made LOL

Some photos from the night before~



We spent the lovely afternoon watching people nearly crash into each other on the Lake, a marriage proposal on the water, and a bunch of newlywed couples passing by and taking wedding photos.. as people talked about bad anime and Animal Crossing and Monster Hunter



Lexie and Rune



Nicole with Rune and her lolface


#unfriendlyblacklolitas
#youcanttwerkwithus


A friend of Aria's boyfriend who came by and chilled for a while


Nicole, Rune, Aria, myself, and Lexie


It was a really chill day.. that I ended with a macaron shake. From Central Park we had made our way down to Columbus Circle, all the way down to 42nd. As we talked about the struggle and people touching Rune's hair xD





Mhmmmmm ♥

AnimeNext 2013



Earlier in June I attended AnimeNext for the first time. AnimeNext has always been one of those small-scale conventions that for years I've heard stories about it being subpar (besides the friends that hang out there), but this year I gave it a bit of a chance since Baby, the Stars Shine Bright was going to be a special guest, with fashion show and all. Most of all, Akinori Isobe was going to be there, which RARELY happens, which made it a little more interesting than when the brand usually visits places like Otakon or AKon, etc. It really makes me wonder why he would come to these disorganized events versus the actual huge cons that BABY goes to time and time again xD


Thursday, July 25, 2013

Lolita Boating ~ 6/1/2013



For the summer Lolita Day this year my friend Petrina of Lolita and the City planned a lolita boat party aboard the Shearwater, a vintage schooner owned by Manhattan by Sail. For about 2 hours or so we sailed out into New York Harbor, catching some rays and serious breeze. It was about 90F that day, so pulling out into the waters was a great relief for everyone.



As we boarded... I got there right on time. Meanwhile Petrina and people were laughing about if I were to miss the boat...e___e because I tend to be late to everything. (Trust and believe I'll be there right on time for anything I dropped serious dough on = =)



Now for random-ordered photos..

Friday, July 19, 2013

~Lazy Summer Giveaway~

Hahaha, you've been waiting for this post, haven't you? ;3 I bet you have, mhmmm~

Here I am finally announcing my Lazy Summer giveaway. 'Lazy' partially being I was supposed to have my giveaway last month... that didn't happen... = w= Now here it is, with summer being almost halfway gone~

Anyways! This giveaway is going to last a month starting tonight (July 20th) to August 20th 2013. Since I'll likely be in Guyana for majority of this period, I want to make sure I give myself enough time to not only promote it before I leave, but also give a bit of time to recover when I return.


Enough rambling! Here's what you can win this time around~



1 WINNER will receive:
- a pair of korilakkuma shorts
- a pair of EOS G-204 lenses in gray
- a pair of white lacy socks
- 小悪魔Ageha x Ank Rouge jewelry holder/pouch
- Victoria's Secret Cheek Love blush in 'Fresh Love'
- Victoria's Secret Beauty Rush lip gloss in 'Life's a Peach'
- a hard ribbon hairtie from Daiso
- Victoria's Secret Self-Tanning Tinted Lotion, and other assorted beauty samples


I really loveloveLOVE these shorts I had gotten from Taobao (they're not official San-X merch). They first popped up on my Tumblr dashboard and I immediately went "YES". I didn't care if they'd fit or not (being Asian sized) and I bought a pair of My Melody ones and Korilakkuma ones. Me and my friends jokingly call them 'twerk shorts' because well... that's exactly how they look on me. I've been wearing these all summer long so far, as I lay on my bed in nothing but nice cool A/C breeze...

That being said, these are a good example of 'one-size' clothing~ Whether you're super tiny, or thick and curvy like me, you'll fit into these babies. For personal reference, my hips are about 40-41 inches and these are nice and fitted, not tight at all where it matters. So yeah~ I got another new pair that needs a booty to grip too so hopefully you'll win this xD (I also have a pair of Rilakkuma ones but I'm gonna wait for another giveaway for that.)


The VS Cheek Love blush is also another favorite item of mine that I use regularly. The 'Fresh Love' blush helps give soft coral-colored cheeks and I just so managed to grab another since they were on clearance. So if you're the lucky winner you get to enjoy my favorite goodies, along with circle lenses and all the other prizes as well~



Time to start entering!



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EOS Max Pure Grey lens review

I've been uploading really slow lately. The pressure is on for Guyana and I'm barely managing to get by... to distract myself from my frustrations I'm making a little break to get into the recent events of the last month or so xD

A little while ago I had posted my review for these lenses up to my Youtube channel. Now for the detailed blog report~





I had gotten these lenses through Kiwiberry1-collection last summer for my Michiko to Hatchin cosplay. If you've been following me since then, you probably remember my rant against whatever lens store I had a problem with before.. xD

Unfortunately these didn't make it on time for my cosplay at Otakon but hopefully they'll last until NYCC, if I decide to attempt Michiko again with my friend.


Anyways, the reason why I chose these lenses was because of the err.. "paradoxical boldness". The design itself is a very subtle kind of grey, and it sort of 'melts' away towards the center. At the same time, it does have the dark ring that gives most circle lenses that 'pop', but even then, the tone of the greys make it look 'well-blended'.



  I found these to be perfect to try and portray Michiko Malandro, who have these really doe-like eyes that sometimes make her look somewhat innocent and naive, and at other times sultry and full of her sassy personality.




An old photo from last December. You can definitely see the similarity, not only in design, but capturing the actual personality of the character, depending on the style of eyemake.

More recent photos.





In case you're wondering about my lash game that day~ 
My usual Angel Diamond lash (inner-center) paired with some other generic lash, but then the bottoms are half of the 'Shiny Eye' Fairy Lash (center) with halves of LOLdisintegrating 'Princess' Diamond lashes. I customed the Princess lash to look a certain way since they were literally falling apart on me.


Shot in a darker setting.


Design-wise, I give a 10/10. They met my expectations 100% according to what I was looking for above~

Enlargement-wise, I also give a 10/10. FYI these are a 14.5mm size, and with the design it doesn't have a super-enlarging effect. For those who would like to wear this with no makeup, these will look really good and won't make you look freakishly soulless.

As far as Comfort though, I'd give an 8/10. In the beginning I had issues with these sitting well in my eye, mainly feelings of dryness and discomfort. Eventually I guess whatever caused that finally got soaked off, but once in a while I get issues of discomfort with these. I'd say rather than the general 8 hours or so, these usually last maybe 5-6 hours before I need to grab some saline.


You see I'm trying to finally catch up on all my posts~ I have another review or two on the way and then I should be posting my next giveaway today or tomorrow so stay tuned!





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