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Saturday, March 31, 2012

New Blog Design

I've been wanting to change my blog's design and stuff for a WHILE now, and I just finished it, after hours of fiddling on a program called Artisteer.

It was really annoying- I used the free trial of the program which said would watermark the final product.. little did I know that it would completely watermark EVERYTHING, even my own images. It sucked so hard and I had to weave through the coding to replace everything with my own image links... sigh. And then as always, the header never wants to be the size I want it. But overall I like it, the damask (?) background, the header collage thing looks exactly the way I wanted it to. Added a little "About Me" page as well. I'll probably add more pages as time goes on.

Otherwise, it's whatever = w= It's done, and I'm not planning to touch this sucker for another 5 years.

Hope it looks right on everyone's screen, because I am notttt messing around with it again.
Tuesday, March 27, 2012

Commercial time~

Some time back in February I went to a commercial shoot for BET's Rip the Runway... in lolita.

Afropunk had joined up with the tumblr blog Blackfashion and recuited fashionistas and dudes to participate in the commercial shoot for the fashion show. I decided to hop in on it just to do it lol. I've always been sort of jaded when it came to BET and the things they show and portray, but it was only the commercial, so I figured there'd be no harm in it. Especially since Afropunk was in on it, so I hoped to see some unique styles.

But it seemed... I was the only one who stood out. Like a sore thumb xD; I expected myself to be the only lolita, yes, but I was hoping for more actual PUNKS to be there but mostly everyone there seemed sort of generic. Bold, but generic.

When I first walked into the club I was confused, because the staff who was doing the photo shoot suddenly saw me and gave me an applause... I wasn't sure if it was meant to be sarcasm or not... x__x But later on they were dragging me here and there during the whole thing. I got an awful lot of attention...

I enjoyed it though. I talked to some people, a lot of them were from Blackfashion but some of them were from Afropunk as well, I was even actually recognized -as- a lolita which surprised me. I was interviewed a bit like everyone else (as you can see in the video above). Unfortunately I didn't actually see the commercial since I barely watch my cable, but a friend or two from High School commented to my page and asked me if it was me in it, so I knew I was in one of the actual commercials. They actually wished my style -was- represented in the actual fashion show, which would've been cool, but... knowing how easy it is to bastardize Japanese fashion... I'd rather not LOL

To be honest.. I'm still a bit scared to see it xD; The Behind-the-Scenes was fine, but the commercial itself, I don't know, and I'm a bit afraid to know, haha. I never saw it posted on Youtube so I might never see it, Lord knows. But overall I did enjoy it.

Anyways, some pictures from that night~

This photo was taken by someone from Afropunk..

My outfit sans shoes-- my feet were huuuurting when I got home.

Makeup shot

and... obligatory bathroom-camwhoring

I do hope that one day BET will be more open to different styles and personalities, though.

(Long Overdue) February haul post

I meant to post this earlier in the month but, yknow.. school crap e_e yeah

So this is basically everything I got during February that I wanted to share~ my taobao purchase, Japan package, and packages and gifties from friends and stuff~

The gown I got for the Bishop's pastoral anniversary~ I was going to return it for a smaller size (way too huge) but I got lazy. It's well over past a month so I don't know if they'd accept it back anyways lmao

The stuff from Taobao came~

socks from An*tai*na. I had gotten them in white, pink and mint. But unfortunately they didn't fit.. so I passed them on ; w;

AP letter bag replica from another store~ It's so cute, I'm so happy with this bag because AP didn't come out with THIS color-- so when I saw it on Taobao I had to get it. The other color combos were cute... but not toned down like this one.

Another AP replica from Bani Rabbit on Taobao~ super cute, the only thing is that there are clear prints of being stacked with other bags :c but I don't mind it that much~ still super cute and my only rose colored bag.

My lolita accessories, all from the taobao store Chess Story.
The quality of these items are SO. GOOD. I didn't believe it until I saw them in person. Nice quality lace and all of that! Reminds me so much of Baby, the Stars Shine Bright. The bows are cute too, though I expected them to be bigger headeating bows. These seem to just sit on top of your head. Kind of indifferent about that but I need to play around with them and my hairpieces before I decide to keep them or pass them on. The pearls on the necklace are the nice kind, definitely not the ones that you can easily scratch off the 'pearl' paint.

Two things I'm DEFINITELY getting next time are the wristcuffs in other colors, and a bonnet too.

The makeup stuff is just.. no words. I don't know what kind of hairs are on the makeup brushes but I really don't want to touch them, I want them to stay gold forever xD and the lashes.. lord... the lashes... I have so much false lash porn, Kyary would cream herself.

I also got my cosplay wigs for my cosplay which I'm going to show in a future post!

LOOKITALLDAT. I love it. It's like a sampler of different styles and I cannot -wait- to play with all of them. A part of me wants to make a video or a photo post of how the different styles affects your looks, maybe one day when I have free time, I'll get to it~

Speaking of lashes, my boo Yuuki got me some Diamond Lashes from California~ along with one of his headbows from his brand Little Macaron~

"Angel Eye", I really love these and I love the quality even though they're nylon lashes-- I definitely favor these over Dolly Winks! I should do a review. Definitely using Yuuki and my other bby Aisha as my lash buyers from now on, just to avoid the hassle of buying directly from Japan and stuff.

Super cute, fairy-kei inspired headband. I don't really have anything that's more fairy-kei, but maybe one day I'd like to xD Like a toned down version of it. I really got this because it was different from everything else I had, lol

I got another package from my boo Noelle~

Metamorphose 'Vintage Poodle' print skirt, or at least one of the skirt types xD If anyone knows me, they know I am absolutely in LOVE with this print. This was the first lolita print I fell in love with when I got into lolita, and I managed to get the JSK back in 2008 or 2009. This skirt is hella small but I'm dealing with it~ using it for mainly casual looks and stuff. super cutee

Noelle helped me win that on mbok auctions, but then she sent some of this as a surprise..

pink bunny and black furry hairties, to match the skirt ; w; a box of sweetheart candies, another hair thingy (not shown) and JKABASDHJK NJ ASJDB SJKHJSDBJ MARIE WASHRAGS

I have never bugged out over washrags like I did when I opened that package! I LOVE Marie so so much, so when I saw them in the box I was more excited about that than the skirt itself xD hilarious moment.

Then my package from Japan, which was mainly Yumetenbo stuff~

two tops, I really loved the both of them because of the sleeves~ the blue Deary one is so cute, and I knew it would look super cute with loli as well as a simple casual cute look, and then the grey tunic/dress is LOVE. I've always wanted something with the back-bow detail, and the sleeves are so cute too~ Definitely my favorite purchases

Deary heels that were 2 for 3150y... unfortunately, as always, Japanese shoe sizing was so iffy and these barely fit my feet ._____. I'm attempting to get them stretched before I decide to sell them.. they're super cute though... the colors are to die for

Got a new nail set from my favorite Japanese nail artist~ the rhinestones glimmer in light, I absolutely adore these. Sure, they're probably so far from practical xD; but I'll find a way and a reason to wear them!

And last but not least, I FINALLY got a pair of Sweetheart earrings from I'm Your Present. Seeing these on Tumblr I HAD to get them, so when they were having a small sale at the end of February I snatched them up. Totally planning to get all the colors in the future~

That's about it~ hopefully I won't make any more purchases until the summertime. But I guess we'll have to see xD

Monday, March 26, 2012

Trey Songz~ Anticipation 2our

At the beginning of this month I was finally able to check off one of my resolutions for this year-- and that was to see Trey Songz in concert

As soon as my birthday approached at the end of January, news came out about Anticipation 2our, or the Anticipation 2 Tour, and I was going crazy trying to win tickets off of radio stations and whatnot--

but then my sister (the best big sis in the world, btw) ended up buying tickets for me. A pair of tickets for my birthday ; w;;;

When I got them in the mail I was jumping up and down like a madman, I managed to scare Omi a bit in my sudden excitement lmao

So me and my best friend Muffy ended up going to Madison Square Garden to see him

My phone camera was complete shit, I wish I brought my own camera because the MSG staff barely checked our bags xD I could've gotten away with it.

Big Sean opened the show, got us all hyped up, and then Trey Songz came on and it was just @___@ orgasms. Orgasms everywhere.

When I tell you I was set from then on?

Both me and Muffy had so much STRESS, emotional crap, etc, but the moment Trey got on stage, all of that melted away. I might have been killing myself the week after with schoolwork but I felt so relieved. So much serenity. Insecurities? Gone. Boy trouble? Gone. Boohooing about not having a job or money? Completely stopped.
I feel that it's amazing when an artist's music can do that to you, seriously.

I had gotten a poster from the goods booth but I never put it on my wall yet.. but man. Once I do, I will just remember that night and savor it for the rest of my youth LOL

Speaking of Trey Songz~ My boo, my wife, my fellow galfriend Jesika Lee had a part in his newest music video, "Sex Ain't Better Than Love". I'm soooo proud of my boobie ; w; even though they cut most of her parts out

She's the chick in the leopard print. #TEAMSEX

She had more time in the Behind-the-Scenes though... - w- they should've put her more in there, instead of using all the time on the Kim Kardashian lookalike.

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

My mom has the tendency to attract strange people...

Today my mother and I went to Pathmark, doing the usual weekly grocery shopping. This time I was a bit hasty than usual to get our stuff and get out because I had church to go to and I was pretty eager to get out of there in a timely manner.

At some point I left mom in the freezer aisle to start snatching pasta sauce and whatnot, I swear it was just like 5 minutes, and when I returned there was this hoodrat pushing my cart for mom (who also had her own cart, for her house.) Mom was clearly frazzled-- this lady was talking so much it was distracting her and she wasn't able to concentrate on what she needed to get from the shopping list. Immediately I was like 'oh Lord..' and I pretty much avoided being in that area for a lot of the time.

This lady had no groceries of her own, and that alone told me that she probably convinced Mom to use her EBT card in exchange for the cash that Omi gave us. I personally don't mind stuff like that, when my mom had food stamps she did that as well, but it was okay because that was -family-. Anything involving a random stranger automatically puts me off.

This lady was yapping her head off constantly.. and at some points Mom had purposely left her in an aisle to go back to another one so she could actually -think- and get the stuff we needed. My mother isn't very talkative at all. She's pretty reserved and she feels really uncomfortable in large crowds and things like that. I honestly don't know why she agreed to it, but my mom has a problem with saying 'no' to people at times. I wasn't trying to hear this lady, half the time I had my music on to go over her voice so she knows I'm not trying to pay attention to her. Not in a mean way, but in an OCD-"this needs to be DONE" kind of way.

Now when we were in the dairy aisle, one of the Pathmark workers, some old West Indian dude came out and acted like he knew her from the laundromat or somewhere, and she was being pretty rude to him and acting like she didn't know him. The guy went 'hm...okay', seeing how she was trying to act and went on with his business. Later on she started yapping about how she had found out that he did crack and all this mess and I'm just sitting here like... who cares??? Do we need to know this nigga's business??? Just, God. It was so annoying. We had a lot of items in both carts but when she asked if I needed help I told her no. The last thing I needed was this broad to mix up our groceries and slowing us down.

Anyways, the moment everything was paid for and Mom gave her the cash, she was out. I hope the last time I see her, because I really cannot stand people like that.

The whole time I was thinking of another similar incident from years back...

Friday, March 16, 2012
I'm in the middle of one of those after-project depressions at the moment. I wasn't able to finish the Design course, even though I was granted almost a week more time. It just wasn't possible for me to finish.

A 1-month extension is another $100... that I don't have lol. And personally, I really don't want to go to my grandfather about it. I really don't want to hear what he'd say, I'm not really emotionally capable of handling much at the moment without bursting into tears.

So... I'll just wait for a while.

I've also been plagued with sad dreams and nightmares for the past week... haven't been getting much rest at all. Ever since I talked to the first Lady (of my church) about a certain situation I've been going through, I haven't been able to get a good night's rest. Every morning is woken up to depression, even the gorgeous, warm sunny days we've had. I try not to overthink things and conjure up scenarios in my mind, but they always end up happening in my dreams... and last night I woke up two or three times after a nightmare about someone trying to kill me at my home. I kept looking outside the window to see if there was a shadow watching me.

I feel like a child, with the emotions I've been feeling lately. I either feel like a child, or I feel like I'm being treated as one by others. I just hope to snap out of it soon.

In other news, I've been thinking of starting another blog that concentrates entirely on my faith-- sometimes I feel like the things I want to talk about is irrelevant to this one (lol which is weird, speaking that this is mainly a personal blog anyways), but I need a place to put my TL;DR-type thoughts. Essays and essays about Jesus. Yep.

I'm tempted to do shopping but... with Holy Week, Easter, and this Christian women's retreat coming up, I'm trying not to submit to my usual spending habits. I guess it's some type of 'fasting' right? lol
If I can I want to stretch that even farther to Pentecost. Hopefully I'll have enough money saved to try out the weight-loss stuff I've always wanted to do. I don't know.

Friday, March 9, 2012

Finally, time to relax.

This past week has been nerve-wrecking and I am SO glad I am done.

Or at least, I hope I am.

This whole week so far, I've only had maybe 12 hours of sleep. Pulling all-nighters night after night after night in an attempt to get all of this event work done and over with.. the worst feeling of withdrawal.. on top of it I was cramping and everything the whole time, so I was just done in so many ways. LOL The only sufficient amount of sleep I had was yesterday afternoon, and that was just because my body finally shut down after being pushed so far. I was in my computer chair, hands on my keyboard, sitting straight, out like a light. It was ridiculous.

Despite the fact that my interactive certificate courses were supposed to have been expired Thursday, it seemed as though the institute didn't bother to even cut it off, so I didn't easily give up and leave it, as much as I desperately wanted to. A lot of my assignment work was actually incomplete, mainly the ones that involved contacting and talking to other businesses, but apparently I can do them over without penalty as long as I got the work in on time.

Sending in the last assignment tonight lifted the hugest weight off my shoulder. So many times did I have writer's block (or reader's block) and I just could not concentrate on my work. I was seriously be away from the computer for an hour or two, nothing but my text and paper and a pen and couldn't get anything done. But eventually, I managed to strain myself through. Big thanks to the couple of girls who helped pull up websites and things for me when I was doing two other assignments at the same time.

TL,DR version: I (hopefully) completed my Certified Wedding Planner course. It'll take maybe a week or two (or more, since I bombarded the living mess out of my instructor's inbox) to get all the work checked off, but I did it.

I can't say the same for the Event Design, however. I never got to any of the work, I -was- going to cheat on my assignments a bit (that requires you to go to a venue, measure the room, take large amounts of detail and construct a floor plan and all this stuff), but when I looked at the guideline and the review I knew there was just no way to fake it.

Knowing that I was most likely going to fail that course, I spent a lot of time yesterday going through the chapters of the course I never had the chance to touch. At that moment I felt like "wow, practically wasted 800-900 dollars", out of my mother's money on top of that, but I couldn't just sit there and not at least soak up as much as I could. Unlike the wedding planning course I didn't have a textbook for the design, so I took so many notes for future reference.

Maybe one day I'll do a formal review, but there was just so much information about business and producing designs. I've learned so much. If I had just let those unseen chapters just sit there and never be read I would never forgive myself. I'd feel COMPLETELY worthless.

When I was done reading and taking in everything, I decided to take the exams for both the courses anyways, even though at the time I didn't finish all the assignments. I did extraordinarily well for someone who just suddenly got back into it after like, 6 months of not even touching the coursework.

Event Planning exam -> 90%
Event Design exam --> 89%

I did it so effortlessly xD Like for the planning test they gave you 30 mins or so for each part, and for design they gave you 1 1/2 hours for each part. Every part I swear I got through in a matter of 15 minutes. **Insert one of those school moments when you walk in class late, take a test and then be the first one out with 20-30 minutes left in the period**

The Design class was a shame though.. I got such a high score but none of my work is done... I highly doubt I'll be able to get an extension to do the work (I had a year since these classes were activated, after all) but if I was able to? I'd be so set. Like no words can explain. If they gave me just the weekend, I'd get on it so fast xD I'd wrap that shit up.

Regardless, as much strain as I put myself through I still learned a lot, especially about myself and perseverance. When I was doing the PR assignments and talking to these people in the industry, I learned a lot from them and I was even invited to come and meet with them. This one guy who does lighting/audio/visuals asked if I wanted to go with the team to a Bar Mitzvah they're setting up for on Saturday, somewhere in Jersey so I could see how they work! I definitely want to take him up on that offer but knowing me I might just end up getting lost traveling there lol that and I just really need to make sure I have the energy.

ANYWAYS I'm completely exhausted and that's why I'm just babbling and rambling. I definitely need some well-needed sleep. Now that this is over (for the most part), I can relax and start posting things again. e.x. my February purchases and my 'gasm at Trey Songz's concert last week mhmmm

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